Motherhood /Parenting.

Gracie is almost 9 and I honestly try not to think about it much if I do I want to cry. Where has the last little bit of time gone. And on top of that David is 4 and his personality is really starting to show. From anything to saying something that has you laughing to no knowing something he is saying came from.
I love them with everything in me and there are sometimes you wonder if anything you are saying is sinking in. A constant repeat of the same things sometimes.. Use kind words, did you forget your manners. be sweet , are you sure that is what you want to do. lets be thoughtful of others.......and so on.....and so on ....and so on. Things you want to teach them and when they don't get it you think I just told them that why ??? Am I invisible? Or I should say did they just do that on purpose. Our kids are not perfect by no means but they are human flesh just like we are ....Honestly I worry sometimes. and just want to make sure I do right by them. Want them to understand what is important. And when something happens it breaks my heart. I get it I know they are only 8 and 4 and I am sure by all means if they were older we would/could run across a lot worse things that can happen. But right now we are forming their foundation in their young years. They are so easily impacted.
When they were little it was more of a physical tired most of the time now it's not only that but emotional too. When you teaching them something sometimes it would be so easy to give in or show them the easy way out. But that isn't teaching them the way the Lord intends to grown in the the right person that they should be. Even something as simple as a clean room. It would be so easy to take 20 minutes and do it all myself and it be done and over with but in the end they are not learning. Instead looks like it will take 2 hours or 2 days to get it done. She would rather clean a toilet than clean her room. Or David decides to push a little boy....Are you kidding me where in the world did that come from. That's not my little boy ...but it was tonight. I about came unglued. Took him to the side. Needless to say we were gone away from the ball game  for a little bit. For some reason I asked him why he did that and he really gave an honest answer to why he did it and well that just made it even harder. Poor little guy he does have to learn too...Enough of my ranting....At the end of the day honestly its just a reminder I couldn't me any more happier to be where we are no now in time with the precious little ones. . I am sure just like the older ones say, you will wish for these days back. I don't know that would change anything. It simply amazes me that the Lord would give you such a huge responsible to help shape their little lives. How humbling I should be to be able to do this. At moments I still just sit in amazement that the Lord would bless me with them.