Motherhood /Parenting.

Gracie is almost 9 and I honestly try not to think about it much if I do I want to cry. Where has the last little bit of time gone. And on top of that David is 4 and his personality is really starting to show. From anything to saying something that has you laughing to no knowing something he is saying came from.
I love them with everything in me and there are sometimes you wonder if anything you are saying is sinking in. A constant repeat of the same things sometimes.. Use kind words, did you forget your manners. be sweet , are you sure that is what you want to do. lets be thoughtful of others.......and so on.....and so on ....and so on. Things you want to teach them and when they don't get it you think I just told them that why ??? Am I invisible? Or I should say did they just do that on purpose. Our kids are not perfect by no means but they are human flesh just like we are ....Honestly I worry sometimes. and just want to make sure I do right by them. Want them to understand what is important. And when something happens it breaks my heart. I get it I know they are only 8 and 4 and I am sure by all means if they were older we would/could run across a lot worse things that can happen. But right now we are forming their foundation in their young years. They are so easily impacted.
When they were little it was more of a physical tired most of the time now it's not only that but emotional too. When you teaching them something sometimes it would be so easy to give in or show them the easy way out. But that isn't teaching them the way the Lord intends to grown in the the right person that they should be. Even something as simple as a clean room. It would be so easy to take 20 minutes and do it all myself and it be done and over with but in the end they are not learning. Instead looks like it will take 2 hours or 2 days to get it done. She would rather clean a toilet than clean her room. Or David decides to push a little boy....Are you kidding me where in the world did that come from. That's not my little boy ...but it was tonight. I about came unglued. Took him to the side. Needless to say we were gone away from the ball game  for a little bit. For some reason I asked him why he did that and he really gave an honest answer to why he did it and well that just made it even harder. Poor little guy he does have to learn too...Enough of my ranting....At the end of the day honestly its just a reminder I couldn't me any more happier to be where we are no now in time with the precious little ones. . I am sure just like the older ones say, you will wish for these days back. I don't know that would change anything. It simply amazes me that the Lord would give you such a huge responsible to help shape their little lives. How humbling I should be to be able to do this. At moments I still just sit in amazement that the Lord would bless me with them.

Getting back

So seems like every time I think about sitting down "just to write" well there is just other things to do but think I will back to it. Maybe it's like a little therapy, not so sure anyone else enjoys it but hope to look back over it in years to come.
So we will see how this goes. (Again)

Lately we have been a little busy. Dance is ending with Gracie for the year and she had her Baton Recital at the Stevens Center in Winston Salem on Sat. afternoon. She was quiet most of the day. I think she was a little nervous. I was for her. But proud of how well she did. Friday night she had rehearsal and well we were trying to figure out where she was suppose to go bc we were suppose to drop her off at a side entrance. We literally figured it out at a stoplight so I just said wait and we jumped out.
Sat. came I got up at 6am ran to Sams to buy food/snacks for the Little League. Needless to say I worked out my arm muscles pushing the buggy around.
I did stop at a yard sale on the way back home. I thought I can do this real fast. I am very careful what I buy but will have to say that I do love finding a good bargain. Ran home to get things ready to go to the ball field for David's ball practice, cleaned up a little bit and headed out the door. It's a lot of fun trying to keep the 4 year olds out of the dirt while trying to learn the basic of baseball.
A sweet lady at our church came by and got David Wayne so we could head out to get ready for Gracie's Recital. Jonathan dropped us off at a  little girls spa to get Gracie's hair done and make up. Let me explain that it was only light pink on her eyes but you really couldn't even see it with lip gloss and glitter and a touch of blush. Honestly not a whole lot but her Daddy was having a really hard time with all this. But she looked very pretty.
Recital was very good. She did very well and learned a lot this year. We attempted to eat with family afterwards and was going to go to Mellow Mushroom since it was just across the street but it was like an hour wait so we didn't get to.
Picked up David in Pilot and he was about exhausted. He had spent the day at the car show with Mrs. Barbara. got to eat with snacks of popcorn and lots of attention.
Sunday was good. A good number in Sunday School. And in 5th grade church the kids were good and we had a few good laughs by some of them. Out for lunch with Betty and Forrest . I got the bad momma award for the day bc David had an accident turned around and his bag isn't in the car. And his extra stuff I try and keep for times like this had just been used too and I did not replace yet. Well this is just great but at least there was a food lion close by.
Back at church early for Teen Choir practice. They are doing great learning some new songs and I think sound pretty good. But guess I am a little partial. They sang during church service and was a blessing.
..................................and the weekends go by too fast.